eMocha!

How hard have you fought for something? 

How hard have you tried to hang on?

 How hard have you tried to put yourself to a test?

I dont know about you guys but Im pretty sure I, myself have not thought about that, until this post at least. I’m born with 2 legs, 2 hands, brains and everything a normal person has. Im not born in a goddam rich family but I still dont have to eat sweet potatoes everyday. Heck do you know that even sweet potatoes are expensive nowadays?

I have no idea how i spent my all these years. I always considered myself very very lucky. Because Ive always got good results in school. 5A’s UPSR? easy. 7A’s PMR? breezy. and SPM 9A1 1B3 1B4. not perfect but yet a little scholarship from Taylors to go SAM. then SAM TER95%. not bad. then in  Monash University, screwed up my first year and yet with distinctions, credit and pass. no fail.

 I confess I really havent try hard at all in my life. I dont have to study under streetlights. I dont have to char keuy teow or rubber tappping while studying.

Yet, I cant seem to fullfill that easy task. Of putting myself to be one of the best. I have been procrastrinating all my new year resolutions as well.

KNOW WHAT IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO?

cut down weight. failed

play the guitar. failed

study hard. failed.

Everything that i plan is barely a plan.

 I planned to work during my 4 months university break. worked for 4 days for Rm100+. thats all. big fail

Plan have a body like chad micheal murray. failed again.

Planned to be a good daddy’s mommy’s kid. ended up playing games for 2 whole months. failed.

 Planned to enter Malaysian Idol and practise singing. failed.

Im not perfect. Im far from perfect.

But i never tried to be perfect. thats the worse part. In the end, Im living my life as a pretender. looking good outside but rubbish inside.

Its time for an extreme makeover. wish me luck.